3/2: A certain teacher always has us so stressed and worried. "Telling us about life," by making you feel bed and make us know we wont make it in life and be "cheap labor" to him. Gosh as might as well give up now and not think of the future. Its so difficult. What else do we do? If we read, he will still find ways to make us feel bad.
3/18: I just turned in my senior portfolio, and getting ready to ask my to prom. I'm so nervous but trying to hold it all in.
3/20: I did it, i got the whole band to play for her and a couple friends to help me with a poster and to hold it up for her. I heard a couple of people cried. They all thought it was a pep rally for the school but no one knew it was all for her. I am so happy she said yes
3/21: Well, I am on vacation this whole week and i need this break so bad. I have been going to school every single day, and this break is one I've been waiting for.
3/29: Back in computer science class. Wish the vacation lasted for months instead of just a week. I was not looking forward to coming back, honestly but, we are technically forced to come.
3/31: It sucks being a minor. If we try to do something, we are looked down upon because of our age. Just because we are under the age of 18 does not mean that we are unable and unwilling to try to make a chance just like all the other older people with beards.
4/2: I like computers but, the coding and science behind it all makes it seem so much more difficult than what others make it out to be. I noticed that about most things. We see someone doing something and it may look relatively easy but, once we study it, we see just how difficult it really is. I noticed why most people prefer to work for minimum wage than go to study something in college. Its because of the challenge. We as a community have not been conditioned to strive high. What positive influenced do we have? It seems like the world is taken over by all these innovative people and we mostly feel we have absolutely no place to even try.
4/4: People don't give up just because it is too hard. We give up because we don't have support, we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel because it is blocked by others who have already succeeded and have monopolized what it is we want to strive for.
4/6: Many of these top monopolized companies hold so many secrets from the public, but the public never does anything about it. When we find out, it is mainly too late for it all. Then we complain, but we have to look into it on our own. Others can help but if we don't try then we cant find out what is really happening.
4/12: Many people still have an opportunity to become successful. Pushing back, forcing our way through will help us. Many people find it hard, and it will be hard. Overcoming the condition we have become accustom to will allow us to push the top executives to the side to squeeze us in.
4/14:I am very tired of school at this moment. I have not been getting good sleep, i have to force myself to get up early to just come here. When i get here, the gates are not open and i am forced to wait her while the staff gets to come in anytime they want and are all happier than every other student standing outside with me.
4/20: Middle of the week, i wish it was over. The days go so fast and i barely have enough time to finish my homework and take care of my own things and sleep
4/22: Finally a break. I wish the weekend was longer than just two days. I am so glad i have perfect attendance though. That is very good. I have never had perfect attendance in my entire academic life until now.
5/3: Almost mothers day. Today we get out early, i am so happy for that. I am not happy for what that day brings, it just makes me feel terrible for being alive honestly.
5/5: Thursday, so close to Friday. I cant wait to sleep in and relax the whole weekend.
5/9: Mothers day just passed, and I couldn't get anything for my grandmother. As a result, she mocked me and rubbed things in my face that my cousins got her and how i couldn't get her anything...
5/11: Yesterday i got my mom a little Eiffel tower vase with roses. It was very pretty, she really liked it. I am glad she liked it.
5/13: So today is the senior camping trip. And I am so nervous! I have never been outside like this before, sleeping somewhere outside my family members house. I am so excited yet nervous, I am afraid a ghost might come and take my shoes. What if a bear comes and take my candy stash?!?! Oh well, I'll just have to fist fight it. I hope it goes well.
5/17: We came back from the camping trip on Sunday at around 12:30, and it was the best trip I have ever been to. Being with friends, bunking with friends and hiking is great. Smelling fresh air as we walk a dirt trial to somewhere unknown, is a great experience. I was not able to get a souvenir because they did not have many things there and the things they did have were very over priced
5/19: Today I turned in an assignment i was given last week, but fear it isn't good enough. I hope it is because i stayed up late doing it and slept late because of it.
5/23: Today is Monday and my classes today are even. I honestly very much dislike even days, mainly because I have one teacher who says we are useless and will not get a job, another who just makes me wanna sleep, I actually like my TA class, and I also have a teacher who gives the students the worst attitude just for asking a simple yes or no question. I think you can guess why I sorta dislike my classes, but I come either way to fulfill my goals of having perfect attendance.
5/25: In my last class I learned how bad and corrupt almost all banks are. In the US banks are producing over 82% of loans from the money depositors put. Many banks have a 20 trillion dollar debt when there is only 10 trillion in reserve. Imagine when the people find out about all this. I wish the American people had a say in all this but, sadly we do not have a say. Everything is controlled by the government and if we try to fight back we will be sought after as if it were to be a communist country. I imagine I'll be taken away if I say the US seems to be communist now. Everything controlled by the banks and big companies and if someone stands up to fight against their tyranny then their many lobbyist will threaten them with losing their jobs. This country is so corrupt and the elite control everything without caring for others just because they worked hard before and not allowed anyone else to try. They basically control this country and we have no say just like with elections, our votes don't count for anything. It all comes down to the elites votes in the end.
This is so true.
5/27: The dollar is expected to crash tomorrow. Such bad times now-a-days. I wonder what is going to happen for all of us. I hope we get to be safe and no riots happen. If they do then... I hope we are all prepared, I know I'm not because I don't have money to buy things and my family doesn't prepare even after all the warnings and advice I tried giving them. They didn't even consider it they just blew it off like I am stupid. They always think I am so if something happens to me its their fault for not being prepared. Anyways, we have 10 days until school ends for us, finally. I just love how we are being thrown out of school right into an economic crisis with a teacher that keeps saying we are cheap labor and we are going to be crushed. Isn't that just what every kid wants to hear from a "supportive" teacher.
6/1: Not sure if the dollar collapsed after all. It all still feels the same, everyone still accepts it. I wonder what's next for this country.
6/3: Tomorrow is our senior grad night. I am sort of not wanting to go at all, but I already paid the $110 for it. I hate that I wont be able to sleep in and not be somewhere where it is not hot and filled with hours upon hours of lines
5/27: The dollar is expected to crash tomorrow. Such bad times now-a-days. I wonder what is going to happen for all of us. I hope we get to be safe and no riots happen. If they do then... I hope we are all prepared, I know I'm not because I don't have money to buy things and my family doesn't prepare even after all the warnings and advice I tried giving them. They didn't even consider it they just blew it off like I am stupid. They always think I am so if something happens to me its their fault for not being prepared. Anyways, we have 10 days until school ends for us, finally. I just love how we are being thrown out of school right into an economic crisis with a teacher that keeps saying we are cheap labor and we are going to be crushed. Isn't that just what every kid wants to hear from a "supportive" teacher.
6/1: Not sure if the dollar collapsed after all. It all still feels the same, everyone still accepts it. I wonder what's next for this country.
6/3: Tomorrow is our senior grad night. I am sort of not wanting to go at all, but I already paid the $110 for it. I hate that I wont be able to sleep in and not be somewhere where it is not hot and filled with hours upon hours of lines
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